If you hadn’t removed me from your readers by now, then you might be surprised to see me making a post right now. Honestly, I am a little bit surprised myself. If you’ve been following me on twitter than you know that I had been taking a general break from WoW, only logging on to raid. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was burned out. Our guild is relatively small, and my GM had a much busier real life schedule than I have had, so a brunt of the responsibility of running the guild from day-to-day, and keeping the sheep in line fell to me. Even with a small guild, if one person is shouldering the majority of the administrative duties, and being the general “face” of the guild, then it can wear on them after a while.
Now, don’t get me wrong. Amber definitely wasn’t TRYING to make me a workhorse, I certainly don’t blame her for ANY of it, and to be quite honest, I didn’t even realize it was happening. Amber and I have become pretty close friends over the last year, so it just kind of came to me being her right-hand man, so when she couldn’t be on to handle things (especially last month when she got married, and the couple weeks prior when she was preparing for it) it was kind of understood for me to do so.
So, what have I been doing in my couple months mostly away from the game? Well i’ve been playing Rift. It’s a surprisingly fun game, with a lot of little bitty things that I would like to see in WoW. It was refreshing to take a break from wow, and still get that… social aspect that I have always loved about WoW. I’m not going to go into a lot of details about it, but i’m sure that if Blizz took a look at Trion, they could happily take a few things that really wouldn’t alter the course of the game much, but could be just little… quality of life things that would feel big, when all added up.
Truth be told, though, I don’t know if I will be sticking with Rift full time. It did awaken something unexpected within me though. You see, in Rift… I am a healer. (cue gasping from any of you who really know me now) I know, it shocked me too. I didn’t even plan on becoming a healer. Fact is, it happened purely as a spur of the moment thing. There was a pug going out for one of the lower raids, and they were looking for cleric healers. Well, I REALLY wanted to see this content, and I fit the gear requirements (somehow), so I bought myself a respec and threw my talent points kinda haphazardly into a talent tree that seemed like it would work, and went a-raiding with this pug. Holy shit, was it fun. After that I started actually researching healing specs and learning some of the in’s and out’s of the spec I had decided on, and really threw myself into it full boar.
But anyway… this is a warcraft blog, not a rift blog, or even a general mmo/general gaming blog, so back on topic. A few shakeups have happened in SiB over the last month or so. Amber has stepped down as GM, and passed it along to Jen (who CLEARLY needs to blog more). Jen is a great person, and one of our shaman healers, and she’s kind of changing things around to relieve a bunch of the stress and burden of responsibility from me… especially because I hadn’t been in game much for a while. It wasn’t fair of me to do that to the guild, and just kinda up and vanish in-between raid times, but there it is. I was burned out from the burden of responsibility, and didn’t even realize it. Actually, it never even dawned on me that that’s what was happening, until I was talking to Jen yesterday, and was telling her how much more I had been enjoying the game since the shit has been spread around more.
I had been planning on quitting WoW sometime in the next few months, and searching for a replacement raid leader for the guild, but now that I’m not responsible for *everything*, I am starting to rethink that decision. I’m far more uncertain about my future than I used to be. I very well COULD be sticking around with WoW for a while now instead of stepping down. I guess only the future will tell.